9-23-13

I went for a walk today.  I haven’t walked since spring when I wanted to get back into the habit of walking to lose weight.  I walked everyday for over a year and lost thirty pounds.  With going to school and working almost full time, I really do not have a lot of time and the free time I do have, I would rather spend with friends or sleep.  So walking has taken a backseat to life right now.  I am in a rut however and need something to pull me out of it.  I believe that walking will do this for me.  It allows me to be creative by creating new playlists to walk to and it allows my imagination to take in the scenery around me and create short stories, imagine images and maybe think of crafty things to do.  I feel much better today than I have in a few weeks.  I am tired and I don’t think my hair looks great but my spirit has been poked at and I think that is what it needed.  I am going to do my very best to walk three times a week and to actually not be lazy and let my need for sleep or sad thoughts ruin this awesome idea.  The sunshine doesn’t hurt either.  Vitamin D is something everyone needs and just sitting in it is sometimes enough but most of the time it is better to get out and breath it in :)

Throwing off my routine scares me which is why walking three times a week frightens me a bit.  I have grown accustomed to sitting around three mornings a week and having some “me” time.  That however has backfired on me and led me and held me in this rut.  - long story for no other day. :)

This change though will do me good.  I will get the sunshine I need, the exercise my body needs and the fresh air that will help me sleep at night. 

                                                                   Megan :D

9-4-13

So my daughter got married in August.  She is 19 and he is 18.  This scares me but it also does not.  I am very proud of both of them and see love between them that can only get stronger.  It scares me because I was 18 when I was first married and that did not last.  I do believe though, that Jessica and Dillon have a better chance because they have been friends for about five years.  They have been there for each other during breakups and the ending of friendships, the renewal of friendships and just for each other.  I have faith that they did not enter this lightly and that they have a better chance than most because of their deep friendship.  I also see the light in their eyes when they speak about each other, when they look at each other and when they talk to others about each other.  It is a wonderful sight :) and it makes me understand that against odds they will survive.  

When Dillon asked me if he could marry Jessica, I told him that “divorce is not an option for Jessica - do you know this?” and he said it was not an option for him either.  One of my favorite pieces of advice for newlyweds or engaged couples is the one that suggests that the word divorce be taken out of your vocabulary.  If it is not an options, the word should not exist.  I completely agree because it was in my vocabulary and it was an option for me.  Today’s society says that if you want out, get out.  Society does not focus on fixing marriages like they used to.  Jessica and Dillon are off to a better start than most by not allowing divorce to be an option for them.  

Eventually our kids grow up and become their own person and have their own lives and not need us as much as they did as children.  This is life and we have to let our children live their own lives and support them and not talk them out of growing.  I know this scares most of us everyday.  I just want the best for my daughter and want to be able to hold her hand and shelter her but that is not going to do her any good.  She needs to be able to be herself and her own person.  Both of us will sprout new wings and will being new chapters in our live stories as each year passes.  This is what makes me smile :)

Megan