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Wow a new year. I am not looking forward to this semester as I am taking my first ever online course. I will graduate in May with my History degree but will need to find another university to get my teaching certification done. I am leaning towards Milwaukee as they have an urban program that will give me all I am looking for to teach and wanting to teach in Milwaukee or another urban setting, finishing my schooling there makes sense.
So with that being said, moving to a larger city by myself is scary. I am really struggling with this. I sometimes have small panic attacks as I will be leaving my family and job and security of Green Bay to pursue this dream. I know it is what I am called to do and it is what I started this journey for but it still scares the crap out of me. It has just come up so fast, reminding me that life does not stand still no matter how scared you are....
My daughter is expecting her first child in August so I will be leaving my grandmother duties as well as my motherly duties to pursue my dreams and goals. It makes me feel selfish and I hate that feeling. It is not my intention to leave her with all of these big changes, and I will always be available when she needs me.
So with that being said, moving to a larger city by myself is scary. I am really struggling with this. I sometimes have small panic attacks as I will be leaving my family and job and security of Green Bay to pursue this dream. I know it is what I am called to do and it is what I started this journey for but it still scares the crap out of me. It has just come up so fast, reminding me that life does not stand still no matter how scared you are....
My daughter is expecting her first child in August so I will be leaving my grandmother duties as well as my motherly duties to pursue my dreams and goals. It makes me feel selfish and I hate that feeling. It is not my intention to leave her with all of these big changes, and I will always be available when she needs me.
This is the year of many changes. All of them will make me uncomfortable and uneasy. I will have to rely on my desire to change small things along the way and the knowledge that this is God’s plan for me.
Megan
